For Your Eyes Only....

                          I'm in a huge auditorium fit to house thousands. But I'm the only one there. Not a companion. And going through torture. In front of me is you..on the stage. You are enjoying yourself....while my insides are burning. Burning with rage and sorrow. You are conducting an orchestra and it consists of people I know and people that are my friends. They compliment you. They are in tune, in tune with my despair. I'm being subjected to intense pain. You are conducting a song I cant bear listening to. About a guy you're going to spend your life with. I look around...I want to run away. But there seems to be no escape..no reprieve. Your music's frequency is increasing by the minute...I feel it could break the walls around me like glass. But they won't budge. Is there no way I can run away from the future? How can I imagine a life without you? A life where you are with somebody else? I deserve another chance.I want to shout out...but you continue with your melody which is tearing me apart...In despair...I look up at God...he looks at me...he just says..."You've had your chance man.You blew it." That was it.Period.Damage done..done forever. 
                          I now have to prepare for a life knowing you are not mine.
                          The memories keep haunting me and I now have to go through a future..a bleak future without you and your smile,contending with only the feel of your name on my lips.
                          You continue to kill me softly with your song......